The signs of my own mental decline have been more alarming and more frequent these past months.
Doctors I’ve talked to seem to think that what I’m going through is normal or that I’m exaggerating. I’m not.
But if I’m going to reverse the decline, most doctors in most clinics won’t offer much in the way of help.
Until I reach the point of no return, I’m in the back burner club.
It might seem silly to complain about brain fog when I’m still able to write blog posts, write in my journal every day, read books, and otherwise function adequately – at least on the surface – as a wife, mother, and writer.
But that misses the point.
I need to write – not only because I’ve always loved writing and have kept journals all my life, but also because it’s one of the few things keeping me from cognitive free fall.
How do I know this?
There are times when I can barely function, when focusing on the one needful thing of the moment is like zooming in on one bee in an angry swarm.
And during those times, I’ve learned that just letting myself write – about anything that was on my mind – helped to calm that angry swarm, helped draw them back to the hive. And that one bee would become easier to focus on.
I’d write lists – often beginning with titles that fit the following template:
“Ten ideas for ___ (including some bad ones)”
And allowing myself to write ideas down – even when my inner editor was saying, “Seriously? You’re really gonna write that one down? …Okay, then” – helped me focus on generating ideas for the list, until I had ten.
And then I’d go write something else. Maybe I’d take one of those ten ideas and turn it into the beginning of a blog post. Or maybe I’d take one of those ten ideas and see if I could come up with a list of at least eight chapters (sub-ideas) for an ebook.
Or maybe I’d take one of those ten ideas and write about it in my journal.
Or I’d do something else. Like laundry or making food. Whatever. I did things.
But by then, my head felt a little clearer, a little less sluggish and depressed, and a little lighter and happier.
Because of writing.
Have you experienced the same?
I’ve also found that writing my lists and my journal entries by hand helps. I keep a small notebook (a cheapie I bought at Walmart and which I’ve already initiated by spilling coffee all over it) in my purse, and I’m filling it with lists and ideas, written by hand with my favorite pen – a Pilot G-2 retractable fine point.
I’ve noticed that my handwriting is at its worst when I haven’t written anything by hand for a while. I transpose or skip letters, and I can barely read what I’ve written days afterward.
But when I’ve been writing by hand every day, my handwriting improves. At this point, it’s sort of a hybrid of printing and cursive. My sister once told me my handwriting style should be made into a font (ego boost). I’m not sure what it should be called, though.
Hey, there’s another candidate for a “ten ideas for __” list. I’ll start with “Fog-lifter” for number one, but that might already be taken.
How about you?
Are you suffering from brain fog – either from hypothyroidism or another cause? And what have you found that helps you not only stop mental decline but actually make your brain healthier and more creative?
Please share your thoughts below in the comment section. And thank you for stopping by and taking the time to read this. Take care, and have a great week! 🙂